elust 93

aurora glory header elust 93
Photo courtesy of Aurora Glory

Welcome to Elust 93

The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #94 Start with the rules, come back May 1st to submit something and subscribe to the RSS feed for updates!


~ This Month’s Top Three Posts ~

A dress to die for

Pushing Past



~ Featured Post (Molly’s Picks) ~

Kink lite, Kink life


~Readers Choice from Sexbytes ~

The Contract

*You really should consider adding your popular posts here too*
All blogs that have a submission in this edition must re-post this digest from tip-to-toe on their blogs within 7 days. Re-posting the photo is optional and the use of the “read more…” tag is allowable after this point. Thank you, and enjoy!


Erotic Fiction

The Contract
Speaking Truth to a Submissive Heart
Subjugate U

Sex News, Opinion, Interviews, Politics & Humor

Jerking off to be banned under Texas bill
That Time Steve Bannon Destroyed Me
How to program a sex robot

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

Effortless Connections & Harmonious Energy


A Love Affair, From A to Z: “A” – Always
Scouting: A Lusty Limericks

Erotic Non-Fiction

Conflict(ed) part 2
It’s All About The Feet
Oral Birthday Fun ~ The Glorious Sixty-Ninth!
I Will Do…
The subtle threesome


Eroticon 2017 – I Herd U Lieks It

Body Talk and Sexual Health

photo shoots past and future
Elust 88

Conflict(ed) part 2

I submit, not to an ideal or vision of fantastic D/s, but to the realities of a power exchange which, when it’s constituent parts are under duress, becomes a test of conviction, and faith.

I may not have wanted to fulfill my morning obligations, but there was never a point at which I considered not doing that which He required of me.
I enjoy the opportunity to serve.

Anger had turned to anguish, my mind was a mess of hurt feelings and confusion, but protocol provided for me a lifeline, a focus, and a point from which we could begin to mend.
It isn’t easy to swallow down emotion when expectation takes priority over all else, but protocol isn’t an optional extra once the commitment has been made.

monologue, internal ~ I either submit fully, or not at all. I don’t get to cherry pick the times at which I’m prepared to commit.

I’d felt abandoned, and when sleep abandoned me too, I’d spent those fitful hours beside him turning the pending moment of obedience over and over until it’s sides were worn smooth by my calloused emotions.
Fear of awkwardness and being buried beneath the weight of emotion pulled my nerves in all directions, edges torn and bleeding.

Words are often my nemesis, usually partnered with abject frustration, yet for once I was glad of their absence.
I didn’t want to talk, to be asked to speak;I knew I’d be unable to without losing control of the tears I felt compelled to keep hidden.

Conflicted, I fought with myself.
Honesty requires authenticity, of self and of emotion, yet vulnerability I desired to obscure behind obdurate indifference.

Clarify:it wasn’t submission I was struggling with.
Fact:I always submit.
But when negativity places one in extreme discomfort, mitigating the resultant pain requires considerable fortitude, the weight of which I felt suffocated beneath.

Kneeling is my safe space, where I can be unburdened, and whilst fear may still course through my veins, it’s effects become background noise for the duration.
So I became my most authentic self.
I knelt.

Confession:I wished the time between my kneeling, and his waking, would extend into infinity, so that I may remain unencumbered, and not overwhelmed by the unknown millstone of discord.

But wishes are ethereal, not made of substance or tangibile components which can be moulded into a yearned for reality, they’re shades dancing in the wind.
Untouchable, forever just out of reach.


I don’t remember much from this point to that, only that disappointment coated every sporadic word, each syllable laced with frigidity.
The heat of His body, from which I usually drew comfort, burned,
my skin,
my spirit,
my resolve to attempt control over my emotions crumbled.

I knew I didn’t want Him to hold me, I knew I didn’t want to meet His gaze.
I knew denying either of those things would not be allowed.
I knew He’d seek reparation through maintaining proximity, when all I wanted to do was become invisible.

I remember tears, I remember devastation, feeling my voice had no resonance with Him. A deep seated sadness suffocated my heart with each pitiful beat.

Lying next to Him, His arms around me, I felt conflicted.
In that space, He holds me whilst I tell Him my fears, yet outside that space, it appeared that my greatest fear had been played out, and my heart had ceased to beat.

I couldn’t talk to Him, He was the last person I wanted to speak to.

I wanted to scream at Him, I wanted anger to consume me and eviscerate Him in the crossfire. But my throat seized up, words, they didn’t exist in that alternate reality the previous night had created. I didn’t have the energy to be angry, it was all consumed by grief.

He wanted to engage, His own emotions not far below the surface, but I didn’t want to acknowledge them, I was fully consumed by my own.
He abandoned me, I wanted to be pained enough to abandon Him too.

We don’t fare well when we both hurt simultaneously, we retreat into our own furrowed minds.
Our physicality
binds us in those moments of self-recrimination, but I didn’t want it.
I did, however, need it.
Without it, in those moments, there’d have been nothing left.

to be continued…..
Wicked Wednesday... a place to be wickedly sexy or sexily wicked





You cannot punish a masochist

This is a diminutive glimpse into my thoughts on (my)masochism, and punishment dynamics


“You cannot physically punish a masochist”

It’s a blanket statement full of holes where threads have snagged and pulled on emotions drenched in shame.

Where tears fall as realisation dawns
I’ve disappointed him.

Pain tolerance has no bearing now, a moot point soaked with remorse.
The masochist, with understanding and respect, leaves, this isn’t her time.

The submissive sits, throat dry, eyes wet, knowing retribution will be narrated onto her skin. The number doesn’t matter, the number isn’t the point, yet counting out reparation as each blow falls heals the rift, penance is given a voice.

Physical pain is the conduit through which shame is filtered, as punishment becomes healing, stripes earned through misdeed tell the story of attrition.

Tears fall before first contact, continuing long after, drenching raw, heaving sobs, atonement offered humbly at His feet.

Redemption can be found in the welts adorning supplicant flesh, 10 strokes indescribably more painful than 100 for fun ever would be.






I’m terrified to go to sleep tonight, the prospect of more nightmares, more flash backs and panic attacks is too much for me to bear.
So I’m here, purging, instead.


It’s at times like this, when fear drives my actions, that I turn to D/s for comfort, and guidance. He isn’t here tonight, but if He were I know I’d be safe, even if a nightmare found me.

So I imagine that, I imagine His presence, His warmth, His arms around me, soothing me as only He can.
Tonight, He is my protector.

This is what day to day D/s looks like to me.

When He asks me to endure, for Him, He coaches me through it, despite the sadist leading the way.
Tonight, He isn’t asking me to endure, but endure I must, so instead I seek His guidance, I conjure up the words I know He’d say, I can feel His hand resting on my cheek, Him telling me to look at Him as He leads me through the ordeal.

Tonight, this is how I’ll find my way.

To my collar my hand strays, finding purchase on the warm, steel links. I feel it’s solidity, it’s invulnerability, the power infused within the sybolism.
To each wave of terror I assign something tangible;a cane stroke, the bite of the flogger, a coiled length of rope leaving cruel welts on my skin.
Masochism becomes the key to my survival as I draw my strength from Him.

I remember that rope, how I suffered, each viscious sting, having to close my eyes, having to crawl, metaphorically, to process the pain.
This is what I have to do tonight.

So to Him,
this colossus of strength and invulnerability,
I crawl,
into His virtual arms I fall,
ever grateful for their ability, even from a distance, to console.

As I close me eyes, I know that no matter what terrors lie in wait, His aura will ameliorate my fear, that with Him, I am safe.


“Lust is a dangerous thing. It can make you believe things that are not real. It can seduce your mind and lead it blindfolded to the cliff that will be its demise.”
Alessandra Torre

c360_2016-07-31-12-24-19-384This sunday marks the 300th week of Sinful Sunday. Congratulations to Molly on creating such a wonderful, sex & body positive meme.

To see who else is playing along this week,
kiss the lips below

Sinful Sunday